Starting Over

Today I bought a knife, a fork, and a spoon. The first baby set of utensils I have owned in maybe 6 years. I could only afford to buy one of each right now… I have expensive taste and these are French so slowly I will acquire a whole set. Slowly.

I have been dreaming of living in Queens for a few years and it finally happened. I thought it might be to live closer to or maybe even to live with my boyfriend… but instead we broke up and I moved to Queens on my own and just for me. Life never goes the way we plan. At least this way things stay interesting, right? That’s what I tell myself and I half mean it.

I feel like a fish out of water in some ways… new streets, new subway routes, new energy, new pockets of time, new roommates and a new room. I feel a little lost in a new borough and in a new….. relationship status. But I also feel good. Like I’m growing into the empty spaces inside myself. Filling myself up. Little by little. Slowly.